.....i will never be able to forget..

to forget those wondeful moments we had

as i let go!

as i lose my grip!

nothing is right!

i try to hold on tight!

im slipping,slipping away from this dream!

this dream soon became a nightmare!

as our life slips, slips AWAY!!

i look into your eyes

you look into mine

we get lost in a world unknown

whats happening?

theres a dead silence!

as i try to grab you

i lose my grip you slip away!

i scream as loud as my body will let me

i dont wanna lose you now!

not now

not ever!

you say those 3 last words i love you

as we go into silence

i break the silence with what sounds like 1000 screams

WHAT DID I DO TO MAKE THIS HAPPEN!

i grab your hand

its all cold

no heart beat

no breathing

nothing to hold onto

its all over

this dream has now become a reailty

as i get up to leave

to leave this horrible horrible place

i see a smirk on that lil old face

it lets me know we still have that steady pace

your smile shuts off

my life goes down the drain

now its all full of pain

i just wanna go back to kissing in the rain

but it cant happen with a life full of PAIN!

love,maxy

and yes all 3 of the songs /poems about losing someone that i wrote that i posted as journals are all about the same person i lost that was very close to me

baby the time is near

the time for the fear

that comes to our ears

when the end is all very near

we doubt our fear

about the end that is very very near

we didnt notice the hate

but its all to late

i sit there and await

what is right in our face

we rolled the dice and lost all of our even chances

we took to many shots

i guess we just fogot about what did matter

i care for you oh so much

i just dont wanna let you go

but i guess its time to drop it all

start all over

make things all alright

i watch them drop you down

again i see that the end is very very very near

as i watch your eyes close oh so slowly

it makes the fear we had come into reality

i hold your hand and hug your dearly

as if the end is near

i sit in my room all alone

wondering if you still relize that fear

that came near

that made us both tear apart

but you will always have a part of this fearful heart

love,maxy

yes all 3 of my journals that r the poems or songs or w/e are about the same person i lost writting things about them make me smile

I'm waiting in this dark room

for what seems to be forever

as time goes by i am wondering why i even try

i try so hard to let you know

baby, i really do care

i give it all i got but you just forgot

i cant let you go, i cant lose my grip

i cant forget the times we had

but you just forgot it all

baby, i really do care

i hold you tight

letting you know its all alright

i dream that everything is gonna be ok

but it always goes all wrong

baby, i really do care

i'm waiting for the news as the day comes closer

i say that everything is gonna be ok

but now im the one that is all wrong

as i hold you dearly

as the end is coming near

baby, i want you to know i really do care

as they lower you down

from this cold cold earth

i try to hold you

but i just lose my grip

baby, i will always care

love,maxy

this poem/song was wrote and yes it does have to do with  something that has happend to me in real life and this sorta explains it